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In the crowd, standing out

With a smile so bright

Everything is ok….it’s all so right.

Long hair in that messy bun…

Everything’s cool…you’re having fun.

You’re standing out, speaking up,

You know they all can’t get enough….

But who would know what the makeup hides,

Who would guess what goes on inside…?

So you close the door and pray you forget,

The angry scars, the deep regret,

The guilt that corrodes, that eats you from the inside,

You hide it behind your beautiful smile.

Lose yourself in this glitzy world,

Filled with money, gossip and bitchy girls

Crazy sex on lonely nights,

Drugs to try and make it all so right.

This is where it all makes sense…

When you no longer know if it’s real or just pretense.

It’s better to laugh and try to forget

Better than screaming and wishing you were dead.

Denial is sweet; it’s a way of life,

It’s the only way you’ll ever survive,

Best you stands tall and flash that smile, torn and broken….everything is fine

And in the end when it’s time to sleep….

You know it’s best if no one ever saw you bleed